Saturday 2 March 2013

Traffic Lights {23}


Sorry for not posting, we've been busy (not a good excuse). But we'll make it up to you! 
Enjoy xo

Have a seat. He said, in a monotone pointing at the chair facing the chair he sat on. And I instantly had this feeling deep down in my gut.
How was your flight?
Good. Silence.
I miss you… He did not look at me, instead he kept on staring outside the window. Something’s wrong, I can sense it. Something happened to him, and it’s eating me up! I want to kiss his worries away… Just so he can feel better.
Is everything all right Yousef? You’re acting a little distant…
Everything is fine.
Yousef, don’t shut me out… Something’s wrong. I placed my hands on his and softly rubbed his fingers, soothing him. He shut his eyes tightly, his forehead creased. I hope everything’s alright…
Jawaher. He opened his eyes and coldly stared at me, he had this lost expression then he broke the tense eye contact between us.
Have you ever heard of the word “Razbliuto”? He questioned, staring outside allowing the light to touch one side of his face, highlighting his beauty.
No.
It’s a Russian word to describe that empty feeling you have for someone you once loved, but no longer love.
What do you mean?
I am no longer interested in you, I’m sorry. We need to break up. I looked at him for so long. Waiting for an explanation. A reason. Was it something I did? Was it something I said? He must be kidding, right?
Except… He wasn’t.
That’s it? You won’t explain why you no longer love me? Is it something I did? Is it because I travelled and I didn’t tell you? What did I do? I can make it up for you. Is it because I quit modeling, I don’t mind going back. Please Yousef just… Just tell me why! I-
Stop making it so difficult on both of us! He interrupted. Why is he angry? What did I do? Falling in love with you was a mistake! He punched the seat beside him, his fists tightly clutched.
A… a mistake… I whispered the words, I felt so weak. What does he mean?
As soon as the game stopped I stepped out of the box and walked away on my own.
Jawaher. I’m sorry. You’re not; I’m still in shock… What have you done?

I kept on walking. Deep down within me, something was telling me that he wasn’t thinking straight, things went on too fast. He made a mistake; maybe he’s just fooling around! I’m sure he is. I’m not giving up that easily on the love we built all along.
I went to his place and impatiently knocked on his door. Yousef! Yousef I know you’re in there! Open the door. Yousef! You-
What?! He hissed. As he opened the door, I could smell a smell of strong booze and cigarettes that clung into his clothes. His eyes rimmed with a bloodshot red line, was he crying?
Give me a reason. Please! I know you didn’t mean to say all of that. I believe in you Yousef, I always will. You know how much I love you, and I know that you love me too! Don’t do this, for the two of us..
A reason? Just one? Because I can list you an entire catalog of reasons why! Don’t you get it?! Stop acting like a damned lost puppy that keeps coming back to me! I’m not someone you can rely on, and besides who the hell are you? Telling the world you’re Jawaher AlFlani when in reality you’re not! How do you expect me to trust someone who lies to people about themselves? Huh? Wait. And to think I loved you all along, you poor thing. Why would I love you? Knowing that you’re a traitor, lying to me all along about who you are!  He laughed.
Ever heard of the term Pistanthrophobia? Because that term describes you.
No wise girl, who knows everything.
It means the fear of trusting someone. And I know you have that and some other serious issues. You’re the one who’s disgracefully hiding their own true identity because you fear that the society or the people won’t accept you for who you are! You are someone who lives a life filled with self-absorption and debauchery! I am Jawaher AlFlani whether you like it or not, so stop making up lies just to cover up your own mess! I won’t be the victim of your own hopeless crime! Dying your hair blue just to look like some Russian, aren’t you proud of who you-
Shut up! He shouted. Get out. I never want to see your face again.
Yousef… I didn’t mean to say such things.
Well you said it.
Yousef, I’m sorry… I cried, like the damned lost puppy. He went back in and slammed the door vigorously. I covered my mouth, knowing what I had said was all an accident. The words just kept on coming out of my mouth out of nowhere! But does that mean… That this is the end?  

22 comments:

  1. OMG! I knew it, I knew he changed to the worst. I hope she'll get over it with a blink of an eye because someone else who likes her deserves her, and this someone is the beloved, hot, Rashid. I hope she realizes that he likes her. Short post though it was action-packed, loved it. Please post soon xx.

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    1. R you sure he likes her? Maybe Yousef will get back to Jawaher soon. Let us wait and see till the next post ;) xxxx

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  2. omg omg omg omg omg omg omg omg !!!!!!!!!
    that guy has serious issues!!! has he ever heard the word: she will get a better man if you don't stop playing as a 2 years old kid?????

    he was such a good man,, i hope we discover what happend to him asap!!! maybe his family don't want him to marry her..or maybe he has been threathened... :/
    gosh.. this situation is a whole mess..

    she really needs help and a better man.. now we are all hoping for rashid..

    words said in anger are things that we think but all made 100x times worse and stronger..

    and as Shakespeare said: names are what human use to define thing but a rose will always have its amazing smell even if it's called with another name!!.. so please, dear Yousef. u aer not Romeo :P

    Girls. i have an amazing news for u : thanks to all the support i have received in the last months i got featured in a Newspaper.. i will publish the news on my blog next week.. and i wanted to thank u a lot because thanks fans like u i made it ! :)

    BIG HUGS from Italy! If u visit Italy call me,! i can be your guide !

    xxxxx

    Post soon!

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    1. Hahahahahahaha we totally agree with you!!!!! Yousef is acting weird and we'll soon discover why. Let's see if Rashid can help Jawaher get through this mess and maybe replace Yousef? We never know ;)

      Congratulations dear!!!!!! We are SOOOO proud of your achievement and you truly deserve it!!

      XXXX

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    1. You're most welcome dear :* stay tuned for the upcoming one ;)

      Xxxx

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  4. I told you so, he's acting very weird!
    But I believe that there's something behind all his mess! Idk maybe her step mother did something.-. She's such a devil, you know. Or his mum? But I did remember she liked jawaher!
    Well. Well. Well. Here's the bright side of this break-up! Rashid*-* or shall I say Harvey Specter? Lol.
    I loved the post even though it's somehow sad:(
    Please please post soon!!! Can't wait

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    1. Hahahahaaha we're loving the way you think!! Everything in life is possible yeh? ;) expect the unexpected. We are BIG fans of Harvey specter so we don't mind you calling him that hahahha

      We will for sure post very soon dear, don't worry :*

      Xxxxx

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  5. YOOOOUSEF!!!!! </////3
    Out of ALL the people... WHY, why did he hurt Jawaher! He has loved her ever since she bumped into him, and I know that as a reader I know! If something happens to a person that's really bad like a trauma or whatsoever their behavior changes and that's what's happening to him! *cries!!* I love yousef :(... Never wanted anything bad to happen to him.
    Jawaher should DO something, I'm gonna hate her if she lets things continue without Yousef.

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    1. Wow first reader who didn't move on from Yousef and considered Rashid as a option. Hopefully the story doesn't disappoint you and you like the upcoming events ;)

      Xxxx

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  6. The end of their relationship or the end of the story?? PLEASE POST SOON

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    1. Maybe the end of the relationship maybe not, we never know, stay tuned to know what happens ;)

      Xxxxx

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  7. I asked a question in the last post, your reply kept me thinking for soooooo long! You said: "Its not about who writes, its about who's behind the writer. A supporter, a believer. " Gave me goosebumps... Can I know more about the two of you? Or do you like to remain as Lady M & Princess R - I know im too demanding but you don't understand how inspiring you are to me!

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    1. What is it that you want to know more about it? Let us know, we'd be more than happy to tell you but we can't tell you our names we're truly sorry about that. It is our pleasure to be an inspiration to you darling <3

      Xxxxx

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  8. NO NO NO!!!! He can't do this!! Not to jawaher:( poor her:( butbutbut she have allah right?
    I wanna kill yousef!! how could he? How could he be so heartless?~
    What a sad chapter:(
    Can't wait for the next one!xx

    -Ray.

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    1. Don't be sad Ray :( Jawaher will get through it don't worry!

      Xxx

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  9. Short post & a heartbreak? What a harsh combo!!!!! You must repay us by posting soon </3 I'm tooooo sad ;( La jad jad jad you're the best blog bl 3alam, 7atta el breakups they're shakespearian!
    Amoot fee your story w feekm! MWAH

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    1. Hahahahaaha maybe we should rename ourselves then ;) we will repay you guys very very soon, keep hanging !!

      We love you much much moreee and so glad we are one of your favorite stories, that inspires and motivates us sooo much, you won't imagine.

      Xxxx

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  10. Check out my friends new blog, she needs support http://slap-from-reality.blogspot.ae/2013/03/new-to-blogsphere

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    1. Very good start, hope she continues and good luck to her!!

      Xxxx

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  11. When r u going to post?

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