Friday 30 November 2012

Traffic Lights {14}


I could say that last night was one of the worst nights ever because Aibileen left. I called her phone so many times, she didn’t pick up and then I realised that she left it lying on her bed on silent… I felt so torn. Torn, lost and struggling to find where I belong yet the answers seem to oblige a lot of hard work but they’re right there in front of me. A part of me wants to stay here and continue what I’m doing because I like it, in fact I love it here and what I’m doing which is why I don’t want to stop. But then I just left my true other half walkaway and a part of me didn’t allow that to happen. I got on my own two feet hurrying and pushing myself between the crowd to get to the first plane to Paris, her hometown.
And there amongst the people, I see a familiar silhouette standing, waiting for the steward to cut her ticket to enter the plane. I was just, -emphasizing on the just-, on time.
Aibileen She didn’t turn around. I grabbed her hand and stopped her. Don’t do this.. You know me better than me knowing myself. I didn’t mean it; I take back everything I said.
What if you meant what you were saying? That every word that came out of your mouth was true? She turned around. Her waterline pink from crying, her eyes puffed up and her nose was a bright shade of pink. I feel like I cannot stay any longer, everyday I realise how much of a responsibility you are and how I failed to raise you the way your parents wanted me to, the way they would have raised you.
Aibileen don’t say that… You are my mother, my father, my sister, my only family and my only best friend. I cried. I have no one but you. Maybe you need some time away from me, you deserve a holiday and I understand that. Think about it, please.
She patted my back, and then hugged me.
Au revoir, princesse.  She whispered the words and went through.
I stood there for hours, waiting for her. I saw her airplane take off but I still stood there. I sat down facing the door that led her to the airplane, replaying the memory. I’m all alone, again.
I don’t recall what happened next, but all I do remember was that I watched the people around me buzz around. Happy faces, sad faces. I felt so empty. What should I do next? I got up and found my way back to the apartment.



Jawaher! Oh thank god! Where were you!? I was waiting for HOURS, you were driving me crazy!!! Are you alright?
Yousef…
What’s wrong? Look at me!
Aibileen.. She left me. I broke down. He hugged me tightly, trying as hard as he could to stop me.


I opened my eyes. My vision was blurry. I blinked a couple of times.
Hey. He said in a low voice.
How long have I slept?
4 hours. It’s 5:47AM.
Did Aibileen call?
No.
I turned to the other side and felt my eyes burn as the hot tears came streaming down my face. My breathing was stable.
I’m sorry.. I never wanted you to see my like this. I felt so tired. I wiped my tears and sat up. He sat beside me and hugged me. He kissed my forehead, his arms stayed firmly wrapped around me.
This is what life’s about you see, its good its bad its unfair its fair. You’ve got to pick yourself up and continue walking. You’ll face some obstacles but you have to toughen up and move on. It’s not the end of the world. It’s not the end of your path. There’s a new world yet to be discovered.
And he was right. Absolutely right.
I prepared some breakfast for the two of us. Come. He kissed my cheek once again and grabbed my hand.
I love you. I smiled. I got up with him then brushed my teeth and had a quick shower to freshen my mood up. I hope Aibileen comes back, I really do… I wasn’t bothered to get dressed, I dressed up like a homeless girl because I felt like one. After breakfast, which I must admit was absolutely delicious; we went to the same park that had the festival / carnival that we went to when I had my first kiss. We sat together on a cold bench, I was leaning on him I could hear his heartbeat through his shirt, I placed my cashmere shawl around us, wrapping ourselves like a gift and listened to his stories as I stayed in my position in silent. Our hearts unwind, as we reveal our deepest secrets that time has concealed throughout our lives, haunting us that they might come back. That one-day, we’d have to face reality. 

25 comments:

  1. omg omg omg omg omg i was so so happy to find a new post ! i have had a suepr rough day and this just put a sile on me.. :) thanks girls..


    wow.. this part is so emotional and got my crying a little too..


    now i can't wait for the next part...

    you girls are the best!!!!

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    1. Awww!!!! Thank you soooo much dear, you're the best too <3 We're glad we put a smile on that beautiful face :*<3

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  2. Perfect start to DECEMBER is when you find a post from your FAVORITE blogger! THANK YOU <3 You two are the BEST

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  3. Aibileen will come back! She must :( The outfit really does make her look like a homeless girl, I wonder what Yousef was thinking when he saw her LOL!

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    1. Ahahahahahahaha!!! That cracked us up! We should've done a Yousef Point of View part so you know what goes on in that strange mind of his :P

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  4. Hi, I'm new to typing comments in blogs bt your conclusion is amazing and really nice. I luv this blog. I love the clothes also their very nice.

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    1. We're so glad you decided to comment on our post, that means a lot to us dear<3 Thank you so much :*!

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  5. LOVE the post! You must keep posting regularly because your story is too good to be stopped! Please post soon xx

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    1. Awwww<3! Thank you :* You shouldn't stop posting too, we're loving it so much! Please do continue.

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  6. Thank u sooo much awesome post,,I only started follown ur blog recently and I read all of ur posts alll night until I reached the end... It's soo good to finally read wat happens next! Really amazing stuff can't seem to get enough! Xx

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    1. Well hello there! Thank you for your comment thats very sweet <3 We're glad we discovered your blog through your comment :D

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  7. I love the length of your posts, theyre not too long and not too short. If they were too long they'd be extremely necessary, if they're short they just hook us up more and more. The thing is with this post I feel like we know a lot about the story, like its the introduction but could be the middle bit of a story. We know enough details about the main characters that keeps our imagination going we always wonder what's going to happen next. And on top of that ur looks or pictures of clothes you add is so necessary too its all related. Keep up the good work.

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    1. Wow, your comment is so relevant yet so precise! Thaaank you so much, we're stunned by it, we don't know what to say other than thank you!

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  8. Amaaaaaaaaazing ending mashallah! When's the next post?

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    1. Thank you :D<3 Inshallah sometime soon :* Stay tuned


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  9. Cnt wait for the next post!

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  10. Your stories aren't great, they're excellent! Well done

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    1. The first 4 words to your sentence frightened us until we continued reading! Thank you dear that means a lot!


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  11. Your story is my therapy! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!

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