Chapter 24

Madiyah

I stopped in front of the lake-like-pond. I got off Alexander and tied him to a tree. 5leefh followed me and did the same. I sat down centimetres away from the lake; I removed my hat and dropped it beside me. I threw a pebble in just for the fun of it. 5leefh sat beside me, he kept a decent gap between us, he’s such a gentleman. Earlier when he shook his hand with Harold, it proved to me how down to earth he is. I looked at him in the eye, they were soft and easy to read, and he was calm and happy.

He looked at me, and studied my face carefully and I didn’t want to remove my eyes off of him, I wanted him to look at me. We sat there silently just staring at each other. I looked into his mesmerizing eyes that told me a story.

I feel so safe when I am around you. I feel like I can be me, and not what others want me to be. I feel secure and comfortable. And the thing is you understand me, and when I need someone you’re always there for me. I’m very thankful to have someone like you 5leefh, honestly.

I couldn’t stop, I suddenly wanted to pour myself and blurt everything to him. I never opened up to anyone the way I am opening up to him; I don’t understand why I told him that. Maybe I wasn’t supposed to. All I want to do now is leap towards him and hug him, but I can’t. I don’t know why. Just a smile, made my heart beat a different rhythm, my blood dance its way through my body and my eyes sparkle with joy.

If I tell you this, promise me you won’t walk away. Promise me, that you are going to accept.

What is it? I promise I won’t tell, and I promise I won’t walk away.

It took him a few seconds to find the right words. He stared at the lake, and then touched the grass his eyebrows creased and then looked at me.

I...

A sudden jolt hit me, hard. I knew what he was about to say. I could feel him unease by the sudden change of expression and the way my face changed. Why? Why do I have to fall all over this again and again and again? I know he’s the second but I just don’t want to end up the way I was with A7mad I don’t. I don’t. I don’t. I felt my brain freeze. No thoughts, nothing. My eyes were fixed on his and slowly something was being lifted covering his face. I moved my head away, and my tears started to fall. I could feel him coming closer to me, and this time there were no boundaries between us. He wrapped his arms around me, and whispered in my ears.

I’m sorry...

He was disappointed. I couldn’t reject him because I know that it’s not worth it. But it wasn’t clear why the sudden change, was I blinded to see that he loved me all along?

I didn’t expect things to be this way. But I wanted you to know sooner or later. I had to confess. Ever since I met you, no one else is worth thinking of except you.

I looked at him. Even when he’s disappointed he’s handsome. He wiped my tears and kissed my forehead then both of my eyes. Will he walk away? I don’t want him to. I’m lost with mixed emotions, do I love him? I don’t know... He hugged me and stroked my hair gently which calmed me down. Should I stay or should I go? I don’t want to run away.

I couldn’t say a word, I felt as if there was a hard lump that was swelled in my throat and my tongue was tied. What does he love in me? Those ugly scars took over me now and they’re the only thing that people set eye on...

Are you alright?

No. I’m not... I want to run away and escape. I felt like saying it out loud, but I couldn't. Instead I nodded. And he stood up and grabbed my hand and helped me stand up.

Let’s go before the match starts. He kissed my forehead one more time and walked towards his horse and got me Alexander, the way he approached towards me made my heart skip a beat, the sunrays brushing his face showing a different side to him, he was absolutely breath-taking. He hopped on and waited for me to hop on as well. I did and we went by slowly together, he’d look at me every once in a while to make sure I’m fine and he’d smile. I couldn’t resist, every smile made me bite my lower lip harder and harder. Am I falling in love? Hah, impossible.